[ -- She figures he already knows, and has to suppress reaction at the thought while she looks away, listening as he bites into and chews the apple she gave him. However, at the comment... she really does give a sigh, slow and quiet, and leans forward until her elbows are on her legs again, raising a hand to rest her chin into it.
Time, right. As if she's ever been one to keep herself from barreling into things head on. The funny thing is, for once in her life, she has been taking it slow. She's conflicted. Ever since she was fifteen, her entire life has revolved around focusing on making sure other people are happy while holding herself at a distance. This time, it's more about her, and because of that she's not quite sure how to act.
And now it's just... while it feels weird to even consider dating Zack or-- whatever it was they were alluding to in their discussion right before the draft, it's even weirder to just leave it there, hanging in the air all unaddressed while they awkwardly continue on with life without one of their own alongside them.
Also, there's this: ]
... She would have gotten mad at me, if I had tried to protect her any more, but...
[ GUILT. She's not self-loathing enough to ignore her own competence - she'd meant her words when she'd argued towards being appointed first mate of the cargo ship - but it still doesn't feel right to her. Aerith is her friend and there should have been something she could have done more, to make sure nothing happened to her... right? ]
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Time, right. As if she's ever been one to keep herself from barreling into things head on. The funny thing is, for once in her life, she has been taking it slow. She's conflicted. Ever since she was fifteen, her entire life has revolved around focusing on making sure other people are happy while holding herself at a distance. This time, it's more about her, and because of that she's not quite sure how to act.
And now it's just... while it feels weird to even consider dating Zack or-- whatever it was they were alluding to in their discussion right before the draft, it's even weirder to just leave it there, hanging in the air all unaddressed while they awkwardly continue on with life without one of their own alongside them.
Also, there's this: ]
... She would have gotten mad at me, if I had tried to protect her any more, but...
[ GUILT. She's not self-loathing enough to ignore her own competence - she'd meant her words when she'd argued towards being appointed first mate of the cargo ship - but it still doesn't feel right to her. Aerith is her friend and there should have been something she could have done more, to make sure nothing happened to her... right? ]